if there's a will, there's a way

in light of the storm i've just barely managed to weather in the past month, i've met some really inspiring people in the last two days. lately i've really struggled with the concept of trying - how hard is too hard? and is it the decision to forge onwards that makes us better, or the knowing of when to let go when something is beyond our reach?

sydney was a great getaway for me, even though it was only for a day. my favourite time was sitting at the wharf in Balmain waiting for the ferry. the sun was just setting, the waters were clear and even though it was a tad chilly, it just felt peaceful sitting on the deck watching the clouds form. for a moment, exams were far far away. it was just the clouds drifting lazily overhead in a bright blue sky. my arms ached (i'd just grappled for six hours with a 5kg beast of a cake) and i'd been on my feet all day, but it was so calming.

i really enjoyed the cake course - i expected it to be challenging (and it was) but it was actually a lot harder than i thought it would be. my cake was looking pretty dismal at times but thankfully some of the planetcake people helped me and it looked pretty decent at the end, even though i was rushing to finish. i felt this huge rush of accomplishment that i'd acquired a new skill (it's been a loooong time since i've learnt a new practical skill) and i love how it's a job where you get paid to be creative, and to do something you love, and it's always for the occassion of celebrating something - birthday, wedding, christening, etc. :) i'm quite inspired to do all the other courses in time. maybe one or two a year if i can afford them. :D

anyway, the taxi driver i met was really interesting. he'd gotten married at 23 and his wife was 18 then, and they had their first kid at that age. a lot of people don't believe in marrying early but he was adamantly supportive of it - he kept saying 'it's beautiful. you grow up together' as opposed to 'meeting at 30, you're already your own person'. which is true, i've never thought about it that way but he was clearly so proud of his family and so happy and it was just really inspiring. we asked him if it was difficult to be married and supporting children that young, but he scoffed and said 'nah man, if there's a will there's a way'

:)

i think i'll stop blogging now. exams exams.