another day at the office.

i have come to the conclusion that maritime law is not for me. it's a pity because from what i see there appears to be alot of money in this field. i think if my parents heard me say that they would all scoff and dismiss it saying that i am young and idealistic, and that in the end nobody likes their jobs but we all love the money - so do something that earns the big bucks.

somedays i wonder what they'd say if i told them i wanted to stop studying and just travel the world, and keep travelling and travelling until i found a place i know i'd be content to stay forever, like in england or somewhere. and then i'd find any job that would keep me - doesn't have to be high paying or whatever - and watch the sunsets over my cottage and bake cookies for my kids.

yeah ok i think i just made all my asian ancestors turn in their graves. or urns, whatever those little pots people put ashes in are called.

yesterday in all my bored surfing i came across an article about 2 german children, aged 6 or so who attempted to run away to south africa to get married by the african sunset. haha they didn't make it very far - just the train station - but all the same it was very cute.

i cannot comprehend spending hours every day of my life sitting at a desk doing something that means nothing to me. the pragmatist in me is placated by the reality of all the conveniences that money can buy; the idealist (the one that i end up following most of the time) - is simply horrified.

life is not about the breaths you take, but about the moments that take your breath away.

i wish i was surer of myself. some people are born into roles - leaders, doctors, scientists, politicians. i am a canvas with splotches of color, none of which really blend nor stand out. sometimes i fear a life of mediocrity - the old chinese saying to do with the frog in the well. the frog can only see that patch of sky above his well and thinks that that is all there is to the world, and he will spend the rest of his life a stranger to the wonders outside of his patch of sky above his well because he will never venture out.

i suppose 2 weeks into january it might be late for new year's resolutions. but there is one more thing i want to add to the list - to challenge myself to venture out of my well.

there are so many things we can be, do. our biggest limitation is our inhibition.
lol, ok. i think a few days at the office has made me realize.. I WANT TO DO SOMETHING MEANINGFUL.