prayer

something van said reminded me of something he said, a year ago just before i got my vce mark.

i told him i was too scared to check it myself, and he said he would do it for me.

i checked it myself in the end, but i didn't get around to telling him.. until i got an sms from him telling me my marks.. and i just didn't want to spoil it by saying.. i'd found the courage to check it myself.

i never told him i checked it myself, and i never told him that he was the one who gave me the courage to do it.
he said, i don't pray, but i'll pray for you. and since it doesn't happen...the one time that it does, it should work.

i spent the last hour going through the messages on my old phone, hoping i would find it still.

still looking.

hm. i messaged you on msn. it's been like a year since we talked, but i hope you reply.