dream catch me when i fall..

it occurred to me today, when i was staring down my accounting textbook which has lain untouched over the holidays in its exiled corner of the room, that i am afraid.

i am terrified of the thought of failing, at anything.

all my life i have rejected things that did not come naturally to me, stuff that i didn't have an easy aptitude for.

schoolwork:
i hated chinese.
i hated maths.
i hate strongly dislike accounting.

children:
i am terrified of them, cos i'm scared they won't like me.

love:
i can't love, cos i think i'm bad gf material and what's the point, when relationships fail at this age? not all.. but like, you know, most.

music:
i changed instruments when it got too hard, and i thought i wouldn't pass my theory exam.

conclusion i came to = in not perservering, i have already failed.

blah.
i am a soaring bird, spiralling into the depths of the blue sky. the 1000 miles song says, "if i could fall, into the sky.. do you think time, would pass me by?" if you had to fall into the sky, the world must be upside down.
i am a star, burning steadily through the cosmos.
i am the wind as it threads itself in the spaces between us.. carrying away with it the unspoken words.

..dream catch me, when i fall.